Quote of the Now

Let the beauty of what you love be what you do
Rumi

Sunday, December 05, 2010

Family Weekend

It was an event-filled family weekend. Our gear-up for the holidays.  Friday night, Abi and I headed from daycare straight out to New Hamburg for their tree-lighting ceremony.  Took the scenic route there, through Baden, etc, to see the many houses with lights.  Ate dinner at MeMe's Cafe (nom!) just before they closed and grabbed a cookie to share.  Then popped over to Shall We knit where it was, conveniently, also Knit Night.  We were in and out between watching the community ceremonies and singing carols (Abi loved the singing and the band) then back inside to warm up with wool.  (The ceremony itself and the tree lighting were not particularly exciting for either of us. Certainly I'd rather be knitting!)  We also shared a hot apple cider - Abi's first taste. It was delicious.  Between the stuffed sheep, the puzzles, and her cookie pieces (mostly the cookie) Abi was quite content and we stayed later than I realized.  Drove home the quick way (a mere 10 minutes or so down the 7/8), tucked Abi in bed with promises of more fun tomorrow. 

Saturday, while I volunteered at GRAB's annual Winter event - pet photos with Santa - Abi and Robin went geocaching
 They also visited the home of William Lyon Mackenzie King to see it decked out for a Victorian Christmas, partake in some treats, and make a craft.  I hear Abi also got to jump on a bed there.

Flat Julianna tagged along.



At some point while geocaching they also found this cool fort!



Eventually they arrived to pick me up. Abi was intrigued by Santa and wanted to take his photo, but refused to have her photo taken with him.  Flat Julianna didn't mind.  I wonder what she asked of Santa for Christmas.

Sunday was another exciting day.  We began with decorating the tree. Abi loved carefully opening all the decorations - most of which she had never seen before.  This is the first year since her birth that we have been in town for the holidays.

 Followed up the tree with some painting of brown paper for wrapping paper.  Here is the second sheet.



This was promptly followed by a bath.

 The cats took this opportunity to claim the paper as their own.  I have no idea why it is so appealing to them, but they were willing to fight over it.


On our way out to New Hamburg (twice in one weekend!), we made a few stops for geocaches, but due to the cold, we let Robin pop out to find them. They were all quick finds.  On the longer finds, Abi and I hung out in the car where I could stay warm.

At another stop, in New Hamburg, Abi and I hung out with some local fowl.
 

 
Had dinner in town and warmed up again.  Soon it was dark and all the cozily bundled people gathered on the streets to await the evening Parade.  Fortunately, Meme's Cafe had opened for the occasion; we partook of more Cider and cookies with friends.

 The Parade was just long enough that we could see quite a few fire trucks and tractors lit up, along with a few bands, dancers, clowns, local politicians, candy - the usual - and not so long that we froze.  Flat Julianna enjoyed it too.

 Abi was much more enthusiastic than this picture portrays. (It's difficult to take pictures in the dark.)


She was awfully frightened of this float.  There were a few questionable floats... I can't really blame the Rangers dude and the Strawberry mascot for the underlighting - that'll make anything look scary.  But there was one radio station car playing a most inappropriate song as it went by - Sexy Chick.  C'mon!


 (Abi hiding from the Ranger. Check out her cool blinking necklaces from Nana.)

There was also this sign being pulled by a pony (or was it a donkey?), which I was surprised to see in the Parade.  I've volunteered at Parades before and to the best of my knowledge, religious groups are not permitted to participate in this way.  They were also handing out literature booklets. 


Eventually Santa came by.  We actually got to see him twice because we cut over to say hello to a friend (and give a surprise "I knit this last night" alpaca (blend) hat) at a later point in the parade route before he passed by there.
 And THAT, folks, was our weekend in all its glory!  We hope yours was as enjoyable.

Friday, December 03, 2010

Winter is Tasty

Nom.
Winter is tasty.
And we haven't even started baking yet.
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This same kid, in addition to always wanting to eat snow, also eats ice cubes. Robin's friends and family will recognize what genes she inherited that contribute to this. Last year the flight attendants were very surprised to hear her request. Not juice, not milk, (and definitely not soda), but ice water please - emphasis on the ice.

Also, a while back I finally re-finished her Alpaca toque using an interesting pattern for the top, one that creates a "square" finish. The first time I finished this toque I was using up what I had of the grey alpaca. As you might be able to tell from looking, clearly it wasn't big enough.
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Now it has some room to grow. The ribbing makes it quite stretchy and there's room at the top. I'm hoping to get another winter out of it because, well, it's alpaca! Enough said. (I recently had to pry some alpaca yarn from the hands of a friend's daughter who was quite enthralled with the soft yarn. I had to promise her an alpaca hat to get my yarn back. lol. That's okay, I have a lovely bulky alpaca blend that I can whip into a hat this weekend. Shh. Don't tell ;) She'll likely read this too on FB.  How can I refuse such a lovely person asking for a knit alpaca hat?)

In other tasty news - we're participating in a cookie exchange this year. I can't wait to see what tasty delights we get. I still haven't decided what I'll bake, but I'm leaning towards either my soft ginger or crisp cinnamon cookies.
That's all part of the party-weekend. All of our Winter parties are around the 17th.

This weekend we'll be kicking off the holiday season at home.  For the first time in many years we will decorate our home, put up the tree, play some Christmas music, and drink egg nog (okay, well we did the last part in past years).  Tonight I'm taking Abi to the tree lighting ceremony in New Hamburg.  She's delighted by all the Christmas lights outside, so I think she'll be thrilled to see a large tree be lit up.  Tomorrow I'll be volunteering at an event for the Grand River All Breed animal rescue.  From 1-5pm there will be pet photos with Santa at Pet Planet on Erb St (at Erbsville/Ira Needles). Sunday evening we'll be back in New Hamburg for their Santa parade.  We're looking forward to the lights, because with an evening parade there must be plenty of sparkling Christmas lights.  Not sure yet when we'll fit in decorating, but there is plenty of time between events.  And, hey, I won't have to hang the star lights on the wall this year... because they are still up from last year. (I know, I know...)

AND, I'm almost done my Yule gift preparations - a combination of shopping and knitting.  Well, for all the gifts I have to mail. Or, well, when i think about it... there's still that pair of socks to finish and something quick to start... but I'm CLOSE. ;)  And then there's the stuff for Abi and Robin that is only partially finished... but I have until the 21st for that. "plenty" of time. *cough*

Thursday, December 02, 2010

greater independence

Really, does she even need me anymore?  For the last month or more, when Abi is using a public toilet, she goes all by herself.  After I inspect the stall, she enters, closes and locks the door on me, and proceeds to do her business, get everything back on, and come out to wash her hands.  If the restroom provided stools to reach the sink she wouldn't need me at all.  I just function as a stool to reach things.
I mean, sheesh, what's left for me to do for her?

Oh, well there's still the love.  Lots of love. Kids like that stuff. Most of the time. Sometimes we are informed that she doesn't need a hug and a kiss.

And she's not quite ready to prepare her own meals or reach the cookies - except when we foolishly leave the homemade cookies in a large container on the table. Then when we're not looking she helps herself to 2 or 4.

But, really, if this is 2 years, what on earth am I going to do at 3 years?!  Ooooh, I know: Have another baby! That's right kiddo - if you want to be all independent and stuff, then I'll just make me another dependent child.
(To be clear I am not pregnant and we are not TTC.  Ericka you don't have to comment -- I know what you'll say.)

I'm half-joking. I love her independence. It's delightful.  But there are moments (many) when I look and know she's most definitely growing very fast and I miss some of the dependent days when we could snuggle all day.  And then there's my friends with older children lamenting that the kids are off to school/university etc and I can't help but think it all comes so quickly.  Even though she is "still just two".  But she'll be three on her birthday.  (She reminds us all. the. time.)

Speaking of independence - as in that day I'll be FREE of grad school - 3 chapters done. (Well, okay, I'm tidying up the third today, but I have a fourth half-done, so it balances out).

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

An Introduction

I have decided to share this draft of the opening of my dissertation. It's still a work in progress. I am aware that I have adopted a highly "conversational" tone, and that is because I needed a break from the "academic" tone of the rest of the dissertation.  I had been thinking of writing a "what the heck I've been doing for the past several years" blog post for quite some time. I think this intro covers it. [here i go... nervously about to click "publish"]


“Yes you can! You just have to do your dreams!” was the encouragement I recently received when I voiced doubt about my ability to complete something.  Inspiring.  But, I wondered, where did she learn that phrase?  I have spoken with her about dreams, but usually in the context of convincing her to sleep.  I wondered if she derived it from “It’s okay to dream big”, a statement in her book It’s Okay.  Where else would she have learned about following your dreams?  Who else has been encouraging her?  Does she tell this to herself? Does she encourage herself to follow her own dreams? And what are those dreams? What aspirations does my two-years-old daughter have?
Such modes of wondering have also inspired my research.  Before I delve into some of the personal, reflexive history that has shaped my methodology, the reader might prefer that I jump ahead to the present and the purpose of this publication.  For years I have been answering the common question of “what are you studying” with the terse response “the religious socialization of children in a new religious movement”.  With those ten words I will either sufficiently cause the inquirer to cease their questions if they are not actually interested, or compel them to inquire further.  I will assume that the reader would ask me to elaborate.   I am interested in how kids engage religion.  By what processes do kids learn about religion or a particular religion?  It seems such a simple question, with perhaps a simple answer available – if one looks to the dominant literature.  You would be forgiven for assuming a simplistic answer – that kids learn from their parents and religious education.  That is what the literature tells us about religious socialization.  It seems a fairly straight-forward process:  religious institutions transmit their particular forms of religion to the next generation of kids via explicit education programs and / or parental instruction.  Kids, for their part, absorb the teachings provided and eventually internalize that religious worldview.  If kids seem less religious now than “before”, it is because of the secularization of society, the loss of religion in the home, the decline of religious education programming, and other such perceived institutional ills.  I will not dispute that such things affect how kids encounter religion, but such a response tells us little about the processes by which kids learn about religion. 
Popular discussions about youths and religion assume that parents are no longer teaching religion, youths are no longer attending churches, and most youths don’t care about religion at all – being too wrapped up in technology and consumerism.  However, as national research projects such as the American National Study of Youth and Religion (Smith and Denton 2005; Smith and Snell 2009; Dean 2010; Pearce and Denton 2010) and Project Teen Canada (Bibby 2009) have effectively demonstrated, youths in North America are more religious than they are given credit for.  It would be a mistake to assume that religion is no longer important to youths or that the study of the religiosity of youths is insignificant.  In the last decade, the study of youth religiosity has been taken up with increased intensity internationally, as evidenced by the most recent edited international collection of articles on Religion and Youth (Collins-Mayo and Dandelion 2010).  Whether youths are more, less, or equally religious than before is a topic of concern with particular pertinence within religious communities seeking to transmit their religious traditions, but it is also pertinent to the study of religion and society.
The question of whether kids are more or less religious and more or less inclined to affiliate with their parent’s religious group; children’s images of God; children’s spirituality and religious development; the psycho-social benefits of religious affiliation for adolescents and youths; and the pedagogy of religious education dominate the literature concerning children, adolescents and religion.  Most of these studies are derived from studies of Christians, but occasionally other world religions are featured.  Many of these studies have an explicit or implicit concern with the maintenance of a religious tradition.  For example, studies of children’s religious development (using developmental models of childhood), including images of God, are typically employed to refine religious education programs to appropriately align teachings with the perceived understandings of children.  Studies of psycho-social benefits of religion for youths encourage the development of religious youth groups, particularly insofar as religious association is expected to reduce delinquency.  The volume of such studies are too numerous to list; I literally found hundreds in my review of journals devoted to the study of religion and journals devoted to the study of children and adolescents – from every discipline.  The examples I found date back to the nineteenth century and I have continued finding articles until the present (2010).  At one point I attempted to chart my findings by journal, by year, and by topic, but the volume was unwieldy – I didn’t have the software to handle it[1] and as I continued to find additional material I realized my charts were continually outdated and my extensive efforts were, ultimately, a side project to the real work of my thesis. 
Here is a sample of the findings.  Although I would not assert these numbers to be “hard”, they are demonstrative of relative trends.  Studies of the psycho-social benefits of religion among youths constitute a larger portion of the research in the last 50 years.  The category of “religiosity, spirituality, and faith development” includes a variety of studies which I have grouped together because they share a concern with the development of children in relation to religion (and/or spirituality).  Studies of spirituality are more recent.  Typically these evaluations contain a pedagogical element.  Explicitly pedagogical articles were excluded from this sampling of research because entire journals, dating back over a century, have been dedicated to this topic of how to effectively teach children.  Much of Religious Education literature applies studies included here on children’s development; thus the inclusion of RE literature would skew the results and greatly inflate this category without adequately representing actual research.  The study of parental influences frequently overlaps with studies of religious development and studies of religious understandings, but I include it here to demonstrate the prominence of such concerns in research.  The items included in this count explicitly focus on the role of parents.  The category of religious understandings includes studies of religious knowledge as well as children’s conceptualizations of religion.  The category of religious affiliation indicates studies explicitly concerned with adolescents’ attendance and stated affiliations.  The category of identity includes studies of how religion is connected with other forms of identity and personality.  The family life category indicates interest in how religion impacts family life; these studies are not about children or adolescents directly.  The final category includes articles explicitly referencing religious socialization or transmission of beliefs.

I realized, eventually, that all the time I had spent exploring this large volume of research, desperately seeking studies similar to my own that were interested in the processes of religious socialization among children, would be but a small paragraph in this dissertation.  I thought that I should properly document the other literature so as to appropriately locate my own research (and its relative uniqueness), but the volume of research I gathered better lends itself to generalized statements at this point.  Studies of particular relevance to my research are addressed throughout this dissertation where appropriate.
The question you may be asking yourself, now, is where does my research feature in this milieu?  In the first chapter I will elaborate upon research on socialization, and religious socialization in particular, and my critique of the dominant models of research in this field.  I shall here make a positive statement concerning what my research is without yet addressing what it is not.  I have engaged in an interactionist study of religious socialization that considers the social environments in which the process of religious socialization is engaged, the primary external agents in this process, the social interactions that influence individual and group understandings, and the religious identities of children and adolescents.  The religious group I am studying, in order to develop a qualitative study, is contemporary Paganism.  I chose this religious group for many reasons, some of which will be addressed below as they contribute to my methodology.  As a case study example, I chose Paganism because it is a new religious movement and I desired to explore how children being raised in a NRM that is not a totalist group perceive the religion of their parents in relation to their awareness of other mainstream forms of religion and how they develop their own religious ideas.  Given my awareness that many Pagan parents elect to not “indoctrinate” their children with any religion, I wondered how their children learn about and understand religion.  Although some parents do provide explicit teachings concerning Paganism in conversations with their children, others do not – and yet, I wondered, in what ways do they nevertheless model a religion for their children, if at all.  I also wished to further examine the ways in which a new religious movement composed primarily of adult converts negotiates the presence of children within the movement, and how this impacts the process of religious socialization for the kids.  Finally, I wondered about the religious identities of these kids given their affiliation – either directly or by association through their parents – with a NRM that is stigmatized as being ‘different’ from mainstream religions.  Early on, as I developed my research proposal, I hypothesized (for the sake of hypothesizing) that association with a stigmatized NRM would increase the salience of religion for kids.  That hypothesis was not supported by my research findings.
Methodology...

[1] I am now using Zotero to organize my collection, but the process of tagging and categorizing this extensive collection is very time consuming.  I also managed to delete, with one mis-aimed click of the mouse, an entire sub-folder containing all the research on children/adolescents and religion. Fortunately the actual entries remained in my master library and this happened after I printed out the 194 pages of entries (shrunken down to 33 printer pages), but I have not had the time to sort these hundreds of items from the more than 1200 entries in my collection.

Monday, November 22, 2010

Abi took these pictures for you

Abi took these pictures for you. Well, I don't think she was thinking of who would see them when she was using the camera, but here you go anyhow.





Thursday, November 18, 2010

Care Bear Stare!

4, 3, 2, 1 STARE!
Who doesn't remember the Care Bears stare? Well, just in case, here's a sample.

(We haven't seen this one. I'm still confused sometimes with the series timeline, but that's unrelated here.)

Recently Abi was talking to me about Halloween - again. Usually this comes up in the context of "can I have a treat from trick or treating with D?"  She was telling me about D being scared of monsters (he insisted on returning home after a few houses because he was mightily afraid of the decorations; Abi continued on for another hour).  I asked if she was afraid of monsters and she replied (this time) that she just gives them the Care Bears Stare! She then proceeded to demonstrate from her car seat. I couldn't look to see, but I can imagine her straining to push her tummy out from the straps.

Lately she uses the Stare a lot when she's playing.  She also uses it when she doesn't like something Mommy and Daddy are asking her to do.  Then we become the "monsters" and she Stares us down. But much like her Ogre face (which we still see and have to stifle our laughter), this is hilarious to watch!  She puffs out her tummy and with great determination Stares us down. "STARE!"

I'm hoping she'll maintain her fearless self-determination over the years, but balanced with the Care Bears caring for others of course.  I like to remind her that the Care Bears Stare involves caring - that caring is the source of their "stare" power.
Who thought I'd be using Care Bears as a teaching tool?? Not me.

Monday, November 15, 2010

second chapter completed

After much trimming (read: copy-pasting to other chapters where better suited - even the stuff that didn't have a place was pasted elsewhere just in case I decide I want it) I managed to keep this chapter at 19 pages (That's single spaced with size 11 font). Much more realistic than the previous chapter (32 pages).  And, if I were to remove the copious footnotes, it would be shorter yet. But I'm not removing them.  They do constitute an additional 2,200 words or so.  Word count tells me I have 11,369 / 13,579 words. That's not including the associated bibliography (6 more pages).  Imagine the final bibliography! Let's see, what the current total? 9 pages of biblio for the theory chapter plus 6 pages for the current chapter is 15 pages. That should be the bulk of the literature reviewed. Well, except for reviewing all the relevant literature written by Pagans about parenting and other similar primary sources.  And the methodology literature supporting my methodology... okay, quite a few more pages to come.

In case you are wondering what this chapter is about, it is my review of
1) What contemporary Paganism is - its history and presence in North America. I kept it very tightly focused. None of that "what witches do" stuff I see so often.  I don't describe ritual practices or what holidays they celebrate, etc.  I stick to the development of the religious movement, demographics of participants, and a brief discussion of it being a minority religion.  I moved my long discussion of Paganism as adult-centric to another chapter.
2) What research has been published about the Pagan movement and a summary of the type of research done. (brief lit review - and I am just reminded of something I wanted to insert. thanks.)
3) Then I shift my focus to research concerning children in NRMs.
4) Naturally I next focus on relevant research about children and parents in the Pagan movement - a section that may not earn me much love as I provide a strong critique of a particular article [Dear Sian - it's not you :) I reference you very nicely, promise.]

Sections 3 and 4 are the longest because this is at the heart of my research. It's not my intention to give full details about the Pagan movement as a whole or the study of contemporary Paganism.  Others have done that satisfactorily (Chas Clifton's Her Hidden Children, Barby Davy's Introduction to Pagan Studies, Sarah Pike's New Age and NeoPagan Religions in America and Reid and Rabinovitch's review of research in The Oxford Handbook of New Religious Movements).

Now I get to return to working on the fun stuff! The real meat of my research. Enough of this lit review stuff that positions my work in relation to multiple fields. No more making a statement about the use of the term/concept "socialization" - well, at least not directly or until the conclusion.
Now I can finish my review of Pagan parenting literature and what Pagans say and do.
And finish up my section about adult-centrism in religion.
And tell about what I did for my research - recall all that wonderful fieldwork and interviews that is my favourite part of research.  Much more fun than the sitting and writing part.  Human interaction! *sigh* I miss it.
I've got all that stuff half-finished. Just needs polishing and new research added. Because I have this "terrible" habit of keeping up to date on current research and making sure I didn't miss any older research... And, inevitably, I always find more. And I'm sure if I had money to buy access to more, I'd find more yet.  For example, I wish I had all the issues of the Blessed Bee but I haven't been able to justify spending over $100US on it - it's just one small piece related to this project. I have the first two issues (given to me by a research participant) and I have copies of many many other articles written by parents that would inevitably prove to be much the same as what is contained in this newsletter. And I've not much use for the newsletter after this dissertation is done.  (Thus I can justify buying several book related to my research areas - books on children and religion, etc - things I will continue to use for years.)  On the one hand it would be interesting to read the dialogue these newsletters contain, but let's be honest - I'd get caught up in a textual analysis that is only marginally important to the overall purpose of my dissertation.  I'd spend weeks pouring over them and in the end I've have to reduce it all to a few summary sentences - because my research is not a review of parenting literature.  It's a review of religious socialization.  Not just what parents do or talk about doing, but the whole process.  What kids do, what parents do, what the community is doing, the role of media and other broader social institutions...
 Perhaps I could have justified the expense of the newsletters, but I think what ultimately held me back was knowing it would lead me to invest a lot of time I cannot spare.

Plus, just think of all the yarn I could buy with $100. Or spinning fiber! :P

Saturday, November 13, 2010

Big girl

Lately I've been a little teary-eyed about my baby being a big girl.  There's just certain things she can do now that make me realize she is far from being a baby, such as doing up her own buttons and getting dressed on her own.  At the park, she's become skilled at climbing ladder-like bars - things that she was too small for before.  Even the kind that go at funny angles and cause me to fret a little - and make sure someone is right there in case she slips - even though she won't.  I never used to worry about stairs or going down a slide, etc, but those metal ladders freak me out.
Today we were at the park and she climbed one of those ladders - started while I happened to not be looking! She also showed me how she can ride the big girl swings.
See, video proof: It's a little long, but you only need to watch the first part.  The rest I included for Nana because I find Abi's play telephone calls hilarious.  You'd think she's ignoring me when she pushes the swing, but really she's just listening to the phone call. That's who she responds to after. And phone in the pocket - that would be what J her daycare provider does.  We don't have cell phones.


And at home, check out the hilarious new costume/toy she got from a friend:


She's a wee bit small for it, but that's not going to stop her!

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Monsters will get me!

Abi's new favourite game is to hide from monsters.  Typically these are "Darla-monsters" (poor Darla, cast as the villain) or "spider-monsters" (referring to the styrofoam ball spider she made last year at daycare and was still playing with until a couple days ago when she started taking chunks out of it and I had to toss it while she wasn't looking). Oh, and the spider reference might also be to the large black spider I trapped (a second one) the other day on my ceiling while Abi was getting dressed.
In short, it's not that she is actually afraid of real monsters. I'm certain if you asked her "where is the monster" and Darla wasn't around to point too (poor Darla), she'd tell you it's pretend.
Like the pretend sticker she asked me to remove from her finger the other day.
And the pretend tea she drinks (in addition to real tea).
And the pretend WAKE UP TIME costume she put on at nap time...

There is much pretending.
The stairs are her usual haven from monsters. "Quick mom, come-on, before the monsters get you!"
The stairs double as a bus to Winnipeg (with daily trips).
They also serve her as a very real "slide" for getting downstairs. Bump-bump-bump - she zips right down now before we can even take a breath to say we'd rather her not slide down the stairs. Let's be honest, we both did the same as kids so I have no hope that we'll stop her from sliding.  Let's not tell her about sitting on other things while sliding...

This evening I introduced (I'd read it a long while ago, but I'm certain she wasn't interested then / wouldn't remember) one of my favourite books: The Monster at the End of This Book - starring Grover.  I had to read it several times.  I foresee many more readings. I'll need to work on my Grover voice.

As for monsters from whom we must save Abi, we've made it clear that Robin and I are strong and can take 'em out! Plus I remind her that she is strong too.  I tell her to laugh at how silly they look - because monsters hate that!  We generally try to reinforce not being scared of monsters. But right now, it's a fun game for her. Playing scared. Running away and hiding (whether from monsters or us - especially when we are "not her friends").

Friday, November 05, 2010

26 hour hat

Normally I'd be aghast to think it took my 26 hours to knit a hat. Especially a toddler hat.
But considering this one started with fiber that had to be spun, I think 26 hours is reasonable. (Plus there was sleep, childcare, dissertation work - YES THERE WAS! - and such things in between.

A few hours after my last post about the fiber preparation, as the yarn was drying, I started this hat. Fortunately, the wet yarn didn't take long to dry, so I was able to have the entire thing finished by 9:30 or so.
See:

Only the purple band is the handspun. The pink is some leftover Briggs and Little. The base ribbing is sock yarn held double (mom, you will recognize the yarn in the future ;)

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